So apparently I have decided to start writing. I’m going to prattle through my daily life, things that rattle in my head, things that make me laugh, cry, scream, things about my boys, living with a zoo keeper, depression, anxiety and all that comes with it.
This Friday just gone, I had counselling. I have counselling every month, just once a month its been for a while now, sometimes I see her more frequently but generally it's once a month. But anyway on this Friday just gone, it stopped! We have been talking for a while about the end of our... Continue Reading →
I am a highly sensitive person, a highly sensitive introvert in fact. I am not going to lie sometimes it makes being in the 'real' world pretty difficult. It must be even harder to love someone who is highly sensitive, let alone a highly sensitive introvert with depression and anxiety.
There are times as a mental ill health sufferer that you think you have it sorted when all is going well. You are working, being mum/dad, cleaner, cook, lover, nurse, friend. Then you realise, usually later than is necessary, that actually the balance is all wrong. You get so busy being well you forget how... Continue Reading →
2017 hasn’t been our best year and we have spent a lot of time over the Christmas period thinking about the hard bits and saying thank goodness it’s almost over. But on the last day of the year I really want to concentrate on the good that happened this year.
What is the right level of emotion you should feel? I’ve had two weddings this year within a few months of each other and my emotional response has been completely different and it has left me wondering what is the correct response. So both friends are uni friends, very close friends and they were my... Continue Reading →
"My mindset could have gone in one of two ways. It could have gone down a really negative route but thankfully I think this week has been a positive one".
My counsellor advised that I need a space to be creative in, I need a space that is just mine that no one else can invade, that is sacred to me. A space where I can be Sara-Jane and express my creative personality. I need it to recharge, to be me. This is my creative... Continue Reading →
Adulting is hard, we know this, but having to do proper adulting is something else!! It all started when my darling husband developed man flu after getting drowning wet working on some animal enclosure or something zooie outside in the rain all day. He had a high temperature that night but I didn't take much... Continue Reading →
So I did it, I tried to go back to work. I felt I needed to at least try. I couldn't make any desicions about what may be next until I had tried to return.
I know I shouldn't drink with my medication and I know what it does to me. But will I do it again? probably! Maybe next time I'll read this just before I have my first glass and I will think twice about the 2nd or maybe 3rd.
So the last load of washing pretty much summed up where we are with William. I managed to do a load and dry it in one day. Yay me! But while getting it out of the dryer I had that moment of "I think these still smell like poo" "hmmm I think they'll pass." You... Continue Reading →